Recently, I drove to Ramstein one weekend (again). Seems like I just can’t stay away from that beautiful area for very long. Plus it is so close to France, only 30 minutes from the border! Normally, when I drive there, I’ll take a trip to either Forbach (30 minutes away) or to Metz (an hour away) to do a little shopping. But this time, I opted to stay on base and just chill.

As is normal (or more abnormal considering my past unpredictable situations) whenever I travel, I always experience a wild, wacky episode or two. Always.

I can attest firsthand that God has a sense of humor. It seems as though He guides me onto paths that hold adventures, which provide me with the subjects of my stories. I consider my love of writing both a gift and curse.  A gift in that I can easily capture situations others might miss or ignore.  A curse in that I won’t rest until after I browbeat my trusted friends into reading my drafts before publishing.  For good measure, I warn them that I expect feedback or else they’ll have hell to pay. They always come through for me, so they’ve never had to pay any hell! My friends: I gotta love ‘em. So, bear with me on this one, because although it’s a true story, it’s still so stupid.

I checked into the Kaiserslautern Military Community Command’s new hotel on Ramstein Air Base. The KMCC, as it’s called, is a relatively new 10-story hotel near the base exchange mall, which also houses familiar stateside store chains and fast food joints.  All very convenient.

The rooms at the KMCC rival any four-star hotel.  I had booked one on the seventh floor with unobstructed  views of the flight line and the rolling hills of the countryside surrounding the air base. 

And I just loved the queen-sized bed, fresh linen, and fluffy pillows, all of which prove to be the perfect sleeping pill after a hot shower.  I remained pleased with the little thoughtful amenities which others might ignore: the shower, shampoo, soap, and toothpaste samples grouped together on the shiny gray marble counter in the bathroom.  And I can’t forget the roomy closet, which has two floor-to-ceiling sliding mirrored doors.

But back to the real point of this story:  the closet. 

Whenever I entered the room, I could turn on the light by the door by using the switch on the wall.  But I would have to go to the bathroom and use the switch on the wall in the bathroom to turn on that light, and I would have to go to the lamp on the nightstand next to my bed to turn that light on. 

Yet to save time and electricity, as the front desk people suggested, I should put my room card with the electronic chip in the slot next to the light switch by the door so that I could turn on all the lights in the entire room at the same time.  Not sure why they have this set up like this, but it’s the Air Force. They’ve always been the ‘different‘ military branch. 

So after using my room card to unlock my door, I dutifully put my card in the slot next to the switch on the wall and voila! I was able to turn on all the lights in my room at one time, including the bathroom. Will wonders never cease?

After unpacking, I took a shower (no chance of an overflowing bathtub this time which is another story).  I put on my jammies, turned off the lights and jumped into the bed to read by the light from the lamp on the nightstand.  All snuggled and comfy, I became distracted and rather annoyed when something drew my attention away from the gossip mags:  a glow from a light coming from the hallway.   

Irritated, I got up and saw that the door to the closet was ajar and that the light in the closet was still on.  I looked for a switch on the wall outside of the closet to turn off the closet’s light but didn’t see a switch.  I opened the sliding door wider and peeped inside the closet for a switch and found none.  Puzzled, I began to wonder what the hell I needed to do to turn that damn light off! 

Again, I looked inside the closet, but I still could not find any light switch.  Scratching my head, I thought to myself how the hell did this light get turned on in the first place?!  Then it dawned on me when a light bulb came on in my head.  This epiphany took me back to my childhood days.  It was a revelation bigger than the ego of the most narcissistic idiot on this planet.  It was the mystery of the refrigerator light!

Like me, no doubt you did this same thing when you were a kid. Initially, I couldn’t figure out if the light inside the refrigerator stayed on or not when I closed the refrigerator door.  Like me, you probably stood in front of the fridge repeatedly opening and closing that refrigerator door until your little brain discovered that when you shut the damn door, it pushed a button inside the refrigerator that turned the refrigerator light off!  I was blown away!

So remembering how excited I was back then when I solved the refrigerator light mystery, I simply closed the closet door and BAM!  The light went off! Just like that! I was tickled that the refrigerator door light technique had survived over the years and had figured into the construction of these lovely closets in this modern, military hotel. 

Also as a youngster, I was proud to have figured out the mystery of the refrigerator light all by myself. I kept quiet about my Ah-Ha moment, though, and never discussed my discovery with anyone else in my family.  I think if I had mentioned this to any adult in my family, especially to my two older brothers, I would have never heard the end of it.  Knowing those two knuckleheads, they would have suggested to my parents that they plant my little ass in front of a child psychologist for weekly sessions and treatment for my rampant curiosity, which never killed this cat! 

So now, as a full-grown, somewhat mature adult, I felt really stupid not knowing that the light in the closet would go off once I closed the damn doors!  Just like the refrigerator light did when I was a kid.  Seems like the simple stuff never gets old.

Front-porch Drama From My Childhood



As a child growing up in New Orleans, Louisiana, I remember that my mom and dad would buy me all kinds of educational stuff to keep my little overactive, creative brain entertained, especially while I was out of school on summer vacation. Thanks to my dad, I was proud that I had my own subscription to Children’s Reader’s Digest. I spent hours playing with my Mr. and Mrs. Potato Head family, which he purchased for me.  Though it didn’t interest me that much, I remained mildly amused each time I played my game “Operation.”

Topping off my treasure trove of pleasant distractions were my numerous puzzle books and my jumbo box of Crayola crayons, which contained multiple rare shades in addition to the traditional primary colors. No other kids on my block had such an array of educational tools. I felt privileged to have so many choices at my disposal for amusement.

I remember that my choice spot to play outside was our wooden front porch, where I would sit comfortably cross-legged and prepare to color my little tail off, blissfully lost in my own private world of solitude. I usually settled down with one of my favorite coloring books. I could hardly wait to flip through it to pick out and produce colorful pictures, which I would hang on my bedroom wall sometimes.

I cherished whatever I created, always being careful to stay within the lines of the pictures. I liked my colored-in pages to be neat and took pride in neatness.  As an adult, I still do.

One Saturday morning, a little knucklehead barefoot boy dressed in a mismatched shirt and shorts, which ended at his knees, came to our gate. I knew that he lived down the street in my neighborhood, but I didn’t know his name. I hardly ventured outside of our wire fenced-in front yard. Besides, there was no need for me to go anywhere else in the neighborhood because I had everything I needed and wanted at home. But back to this seedy looking kid. I remember when he spoke to me, mumbling something barely audible, “Whatcha doing?” I looked up from my coloring book and on the tip of my tongue was, “Can’t you see that I’m coloring, you idiot?” But I could sense that he was short on enough brains to be able to keep up with me, so I stuck to using a simple word, loudly snapping back with, “Coloring!” I thought he would go away on his own and bother someone else. There were plenty of kids at other houses on our block. God only knows why he picked mine. Then he spoke up again and asked if he could come in my yard and color in my book too.

Gotta mention that my parents taught me early on to never be selfish and to share with others, but this kid had me worried for some reason about me sticking to this golden rule.  Still cautious, I kept the thought in the back of my mind that at some point, I might have to go against my parents’ sage advice. Reluctantly, I told him he could come in the yard. But in all my childhood naivety, I had no idea that I would regret my invitation to him. He came up the steps and sat cross-legged on the porch next to me. After I finished coloring my page, he scooted closer to see my finished product. I remember thinking to myself, “I hope he gets a splinter in his little ass, which would definitely send him home crying in pain without me having to lay a hand on him. I thought maybe if I just ignore him, he’ll just go away on his own without me resorting to any violence. Anyway, I showed him my completed page of a garden filled with vibrant flowers to give him an idea of what he should

I remember thinking to myself, “I hope he gets a splinter in his little ass, which would definitely send him home crying in pain without me having to lay a hand on him. I thought maybe if I just ignore him, he’ll just go away on his own without me resorting to any violence. Anyway, I showed him my completed page of a garden filled with vibrant flowers to give him an idea of what he should aim for in coloring in MY book. He looked at the page and nodded his head up and down as if he knew what I expected of him. I hoped he did for his own safety.

Although I was still wary of his mental abilities, I flipped through my coloring book to find a simple picture that would not be too difficult for him to complete. I found one and then turned my coloring book around for him to easily be able to color on the page from his sitting position. With no apparent thought process, he grabbed my crayon box and took an orange crayon from the box without relating that particular color he chose to fit anything in the picture on the page. Nothing in the drawing called for the color orange. The picture was of a few trees, a small stream with a frog nearby. I didn’t say anything…yet, but I frowned and watched as he bent down closer to the page and started to attack the picture erratically with zig zag lines all over the page. Dumbfounded, I sat back and steamed in silence as I watched him put down the orange crayon on the porch and pick a purple crayon out of the box. The first thing that teed me off was that he didn’t even put the orange crayon back in my box! Damned moron, I thought! Then he started scratching more zig-zag lines all over the orange crap he made on the page. I began to wonder if he didn’t see the fucking trees and the small stream with a little frog nearby? This crazy crap was too much for me not to take some action. I thought to myself, “This little shithead has GOT TO GO.”

Angry and frustrated, I snatched the purple crayon from his hand and put it back in my crayon box. In a flash,  I stood up and told him to get his stinky little ass off my porch. His eyes got big as Oreo cookies. Fearful of what might come next, he quickly stood up, visibly scared that I would punch him in the face, which I wanted to do and had every right to do. But messing up a page in my cherished coloring book didn’t rise to the level of an ass kicking from me. As he scrambled down the steps, I ran behind him. He flew out the gate, which is where I stopped. I shook my fist at him and screamed, “And don’t you ever come back in my yard. Ever!”

I watched him hightail it down the block, laughing as I heard the sound of his bare feet slapping the pavement like someone getting repeatedly smacked in the face. I saw him make a sharp left and disappear down an alley where his house was. Honestly, he deserved to get beat up, but on second thought, banning him from my yard was enough punishment. Needless to say, he never showed up again at my gate.  I stomped up the stairs and sat down on the porch again, looking at my coloring book with disgust as if it needed a vaccination from some type of disease.  But I picked it up and flipped through the pages to the one that the little idiot had destroyed.  I tore that page out and balled it up to later discard in the garbage can.  I felt better then. Ahh, so much drama from my childhood days.


Train Rides Ain’t the Same



As a kid, traveling in Louisiana by train with my mom left pleasant, indelible memories. After arriving at the train station and buying our tickets, she’d find the right platform and track to await the right train. While waiting for the train, I’d hold her hand and carefully lean over the platform to peep down the tracks to spot that familiar white light on the engine. As the noisy train pulled into the station, I squealed in delight at the deafening whistle and the steam spewing from around the massive wheels. Satisfied with its arrival, I stood in awe as the hulking steel cars slowly snaked to a screeching stop.

After boarding, I’d run down the aisle to claim a window seat for my privileged view to come: serene marshy lands, flocks of winged creatures in Vee formations soaring over the bayous, and kids running and waving as the train skirted by their shanty towns.

Recently, a job opportunity beckoned me to Darmstadt, Germany, which was about a four-hour drive from my town of Vilseck in the eastern part of Germany near the Czech border. To lull in the comfort of my precious childhood memories, I decided to take the train.

The trip to Darmstadt proved worthy of bragging, given the solitude, the comfortable ride and the rustic, picturesque countryside. Even changing trains in Nuernberg and Aschaffenburg amounted to a minor inconvenience. But an unfortunate chain of events lurked around every corner, just waiting to turn my trip into a comedy of errors.  Sadly, Ma wasn’t there to help me survive

After arriving, I checked into the hotel. Next morning, I awoke refreshed, ready for the day’s interview, which unfortunately ran in sessions for three days. Stressed out from the long meetings and the company’s hard-sell tactics, I decided not to make a commitment until they ironed out some issues.

At 4:30 that afternoon, I boarded the train and looked forward to a leisurely trip back.  Naturally, I changed trains in Aschaffenburg and Nuernberg as on my trip up. No problem. My next and last stop should have been Vilseck, which posed a big damn problem!.


The beefy female attendant strolled through the aisles checking each passenger’s tickets. I eagerly presented mine to her. She scanned it and frowned, not a good sign for me. After handing it back to me, she screeched in fractured English, ”YOU ARE GOINK WRONG WAY. THIS TRAIN GO TO SCHWANDORF. YOU MUST GET OFF TRAIN AT NEXT STOP UND GO DIRECTION NEUNKIRCHEN!”  I freaked out, “Schwanndorf?  Where the hell is that?” Unmoved, she continued, “YOU MUST GET OFF AT NEXT STOP, OK? FROM DERE YOU TAKE TRAIN TO NEUNKIRCHEN, OK?”

No, NOT OK. I wanted to punch her, but it wasn’t her fault. It wasn’t anybody’s fault, but I could feel a tantrum brewing in the pit of my stomach.

I closed my eyes for a few seconds, took in a deep breath, exhaled and mentally counted to ten…twice. After that, I was calm enough to hear her blast more orders at me, ”OVER DERE. TRAIN TO NEUNKIRCHEN STILL WAIT!  HURRY!” She calmly resumed checking tickets and never looked back, not even once, to see if I was still a functioning human being.

Frustrated, I grabbed my bags and scurried off the train, foolishly deciding to skip the safety aspects of what should have been a simple process of getting to the platform on the other side of the station. I went to the edge of the platform, threw my bags down to the network of tracks and jumped down behind them.  Then, I grabbed my bags and hopped over the tracks with good intentions of crawling up to the platform on the other side. But finding myself eye to eye with my target posed a particularly irritating problem.  Not accepting defeat, I threw my bags up on the platform anyway. After getting a good grip with my hands, I hoisted one leg up. Huffing and puffing to get the rest of my body up to the platform. But, I couldn’t budge my lard ass, not even if a pack of wild dogs was nipping at my heels.

Suddenly, a severe, painfully paralyzing butt cramp figured heavily into this not-well-thought-out shortcut. Ignoring the curious stares from the other travelers, I paused and closed my eyes and stayed in that awkward position, waiting for the pain to subside. When it did, I slowly extricated myself from my clumsy stance, hoping no one had reported a deranged woman on the tracks to the Polizei (police).  Then, I looked around for something to make this shortcut worth the embarrassment. Two large wooden blocks nearby provided me with the boost that I needed. 


Finally reaching the platform and boarding my train, I stepped in line to let the attendant guide me to a seat. Tall and militarily imposing in his crisp uniform, he stood ramrod straight with hands clasped behind his back. He frostily greeted passengers with a quick, terse nod and no hint of a smile, I assume, for fear of cracking his face.  As I tiptoed around him, I caught a glimpse of his name tag: “Blutstein (Bloodstone).” “Hmm.  I gotta be careful not to tick him off,” I thought.  After securing my bags, I got up to find Herr Bloodstone to ask him to check my ticket to make sure I was on the right train. I approached him cautiously and broke the ice in my best German with, “Bitte, nachpruefen Sie?” (Can you check this, please?)  Whisking it from my shaky hands, he scanned it quickly and frowned, not a good sign for me.  A Darth Vader-like voice with a thick Bavarian accent thundered, “YOU ARE GOINK IN WRONG DIRECTION! DIS TRAIN GO TO NUERNBERG! YOU MUST GET OFF IN NUERNBERG UND TAKE TRAIN TO AMBERG!” 

Unfortunately, that petrifying voice blocked out any and all comprehension of what I thought he might have said. So I feigned ignorance with, “Bitte?” (Excuse me, please?) Thoroughly ruffled at my audacity to ask him for a repeat, he exploded, “YOU MUST TAKE TRAIN TO AMBERG!”

Inconsolable, I sputtered, “But, but I just came from that way!” Indifferent, he shoved my ticket back at me.   With an impertinent flair, he  continued with more instructions to me, “AMBERG! YOU CHANGE TRAIN UND FROM DER YOU GO TO VILSECK!” I snatched my ticket back and glared at him through squinted eyes. My self-contained reticence and limited German prevented me from arguing with him, and besides, he was too big and surly for me to put up a fuss with. Thankfully, he spun around and stepped away, taking his stoic look and sour personality with him. Actually, it wasn’t his fault.  It wasn’t anybody’s fault, but I could see a nervous breakdown galloping over the horizon.

I trudged through the crowd back to my booth to await the next stop. Too dejected to sit, I stood by the window and leaned my head against it to pout, trying to grab some solace from a tight formation of birds soaring through the sky. I smiled at the children waving excitedly as the train zipped past their village.  The beauty of the setting sun bathing the countryside in an orange and gold glow was a comfort to see. But these pleasant distractions whizzing by failed to snap me out of my blue funk.

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I wanted to pull the emergency cord, fall out and kick and scream in the aisle, things I could probably pull off if I were two years old and traveling with my Mom. But Herr Bloodstone kept eyeing me suspiciously, staving off my pity party. Suddenly, a staggering mix of stale liquor breath and body odor assaulted my nose and caught my attention. On top of that, I felt as if someone was staring at me. Turning to check the source of this stench, I locked eyes with a tall, thin unkempt man. Stringy gray unwashed shoulder-length hair framed his gaunt face, which had finishing touches of deep-set, blood-shot eyes, bushy eyebrows and a long straggly beard. I almost blurted, “What the hell are you looking at”? but he spoke first. “Can I help you? I have a handy (cell phone). Can I call someone for you”?  He spoke flawless English! Thoroughly humbled by his kind gesture, I spoke up, “Yes, yes please.” I explained my situation to him and asked him to call my friends in Vilseck. He took their numbers and dialed them all, but no one answered. Just like friends to be out of the net when I need them most. I needed to hear from any one of them, because I was about to experience an epic nervous breakdown. Oh well.  I sucked it up because I had no other choice but to fend as best I could for myself. I thanked him for his kindness and moved towards the door to get ahead of the crowd and make my exit easier and faster.


At 7:15 p.m., I got off in Nuernberg again and headed for the other side of the station. Keeping safety in mind this time, I took the stairs down to a dimly lit, dank tunnel.  Upon entering, I ran head on into a wall of putrid-smelling urine, which reeked throughout the hallway.  Litter was strewn all over my path and the walls were battered with graffiti. I held my breath as long as I could while running the rest of the distance through the hallway and up the stairs to the platform on the other side of the station. Whew!


I boarded the other train without any problems, but began to feel like Freddie the Freeloader taking all these rides on just one ticket. Too bad this isn’t Disneyland. I chose to stand for the twenty-minute ride to Neunkirchen. 


After arriving, I stepped off the train onto the platform of a tiny, dismal station, which was deserted and eerily quiet.  Recalling my childhood nightmares of Dracula, The Wolf Man and The Creature from the Black Lagoon, I quickly hustled my bags into the dingy station and claimed a spot on a bench with my back to the wall and with a full view of both doors.


With so much activity and stress from my day, I had an intense urge to pee really badly.  I looked around for the ladies’ WC (water closet), but unbelievably it was locked at this time of night.  But, the men’s room door was ajar and I really had to go, but who knows what I’d find in there!  “It” was too pressing to try to hold in until I got to the next station.  The thought of going into the nearby woods was out of the question. So, I bolted out the front door to scout another source of relief. Fortunately, a still-opened Gasthaus (restaurant) was across the street. My bags? I rushed back into the station to grab them and tucked them into a corner of the station before heading towards my relief point.


I tore through the front door, startling the diners who all looked up at me in unison from their meals. But the women knew that look of “urgency and desperation” on my face. I ignored them all to focus on finding the ladies’ room. Fortunately, I saw the sign, which indicated that the WC was downstairs. I skipped a few steps in my haste to get there.  Finishing up, I ran up the stairs and back across the street to the station.  Not surprisingly, my bags were still in place. Only in Germany! Never in New York!

Though trains are hardly ever late in Germany, I decided to recheck the arrival time on the schedule posted on the wall. “Hmm…45 minutes away. At least, I’m at the right track for the right train this time.” I walked to the front door and looked out into the night. With all the mishaps and close calls I’d survived so far. I thought it couldn’t get any worse. Unfortunately, it did. It started to snow.

The thick flakes blurred my vision of the Gasthaus across the street. Shivering underneath my long black coat, I drew it tighter around me to stay warm and sat huddled on a bench in a corner near my bags. Later, a family of three came in: a middle-aged couple and I assumed the young boy was their grandson.  The couple nodded a polite “hello” to me. I returned their gesture.  Honestly, I wanted to share the details of my unfortunate day with them, but I knew that they spoke only German. Hell, I didn’t know the language enough to explain much to them without me sounding foolish and them losing interest and turning away. It’s times like these when I miss my dog, who would always listen attentively to me whenever I needed to vent. So I kept it all to myself, deciding to corral my friends and unload on them once, if ever, I got back home.

After arriving in Amberg at 8:30, I checked the schedule for the next train to Vilseck, a 15-minute  ride away by car. “Let’s see: Amberg to Vilseck: 10:15. 10:15! That’s two hours away! Dammit, I can’t spend two hours in this train station!”  So close to home, yet so far away.  I decided to try calling my friends again, who should be home by now. Called Billy.  No answer. I forgot that Wednesdays are his Bible study nights. Called Betty. No answer. I forgot that Wednesdays are her German-American Friendship Club nights. Called Mike. No answer. Crap!  Who knew where the hell his randy ass was. Taking a taxi home would be too expensive. So, my wait continued as my patience wore paper-thin. Being realistic, I contemplated spending the night in this unusual train station about a stone’s throw away from my home.

The noisy, party like atmosphere in the station grabbed my attention. At nearby tables, rosy-faced individuals at different stages of inebriation huddled close to each other, laughing and clinking their glasses to toast anything that moved. A haze of gray smoke drifted lazily around them. Empty beer mugs, shot glasses and ashtrays teeming with smoldering butts filled the tiny tables. I looked around again to see if this was a train station or if I had accidentally wandered into a local pub.

Deciding to keep moving, I grabbed my bags and headed for the phone area again. While dialing Mike’s number, I caught a whiff of a familiar stench poisoning the air around me. It was the same stale liquor-breath from that nice man on the train. With the phone still up to my ear, I turned around to face a rotund man with a head of thick, wiry gray hair and a dingy gray, bushy Santa Claus beard. Blood-shot eyes and a bloated beer belly told me that he was no fitness trainer. Wobbling and weaving in place, he belched loudly before he slurred something to me in German, which I did not understand. Then he smiled at me, giving me an unwelcome glimpse of his yellowed chipped teeth. I blurted out in fractured German, “Scrammen Sie!” (Get lost!) But he continued smiling, tickled, I think, at my lack of a fitting comeback to him in his language. Or maybe I just sounded plain foolish to him. I then gave him a look which, in any language, told him to fuck off. With his smile fading as quickly as it had appeared, he turned and stumbled back toward his partying buddies at the table.

Still having no luck reaching any of my friends, I felt I needed something to help me pass the time away. The intoxicated group’s jovial demeanor created a party-like atmosphere, which convinced me to have a beer too. I headed for the bar and bought a strong Pils. Luckily, I found an empty table at which to sit and sip my suds, trying not to sink into a deep funk about my day so far. Dutifully, the strong beer relaxed me.  However, it was hard to ignore the group’s noisy banter and laughter filling the station. I envied them having a good time.  I even thought about joining them to momentarily forget my troubles, but the drunken fat guy sitting with them made me change my mind.

Finishing my beer, I headed back to the phone and finally got Mike. He laughed throughout the brief description I gave him of my situation. He assured me that he’d arrive shortly. I called Billy and briefly told him of my trip. He was still laughing when I told him that Mike was coming to get me. Betty would probably laugh too, so I skipped calling her.

Mike arrived thoroughly amused with a big grin on his face as he walked through the door and saw me.  But what I had been through was no laughing matter.  He grabbed my bags with one hand and with the other put a reassuring arm around my shoulder and led me to the car.  In the driver’s seat was his “friend,” a wacky lady (loose term) with a hair-trigger temper and a short attention span, politically correct terms for just plain stupid. I headed for the back seat, but for some reason, Mike insisted I ride in front. Recalling my day so far, I got in front as he wished because I was finally going home.

She started up the engine, which backfired and belched a sound like an elephant with tonsillitis. “Bad, bad muffler, I thought.” I tried to buckle the seat belt, but it wouldn’t snap securely, so I held it in place across my lap for the short trip to Vilseck.

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She slipped smoothly into traffic as snow continued blanketing the streets. The windshield wipers were of little use to keep the windshield clear of the thick snow coming down. Though the icy, two-lane road to Vilseck posed a major driving hazard, Miss Stupid drove like it was summertime dry. “Just what I need, a crazy driver, a hoopty with broken seat belts and no air bags.”

I tried to settle down, welcoming the warm air thawing my body. It felt good, and I was finally going home. But this crazy lady’s kamikaze diving tactics elevated my panic level to an all-time high.

I gripped the seatbelt tightly as she swung the car sharply into an ‘S’ curve which forced us all to rock left and right. Incredibly, she tried to start a  pleasant conversation with me, talking to me as if we were chatting over coffee in a cozy cafe. I was appalled that she actually thought I would be interested in anything she had to say. With a frozen grin on my face to give her some semblance of interest, I blocked her out and kept my attention glued to the road and my feet riveted to the floorboards, praying she wouldn’t send us all tumbling down the steep embankment on one of the sharp curves in the road.

I lost count of the times Mike yelled for her to slow down. But her erratic driving continued. I wasn’t sure if she was ignoring him or couldn’t hear him over the roar of the muffler. With this unfolding heart-stopping drama, my first thought was to just pass out, so I wouldn’t feel the impact of an accident.  My second thought, “Maybe I shoulda waited for the damn train,” but it was too damn late for hind sight and wishful thinking.

Finally, she pulled in front of my apartment. I got out of the car and thanked Mike and his crazy lady friend for picking me up and getting me home safely.  Finally inside, I dropped my bags at the door and headed to my living room.  I was too tired to cry, but had just enough strength left to sit in the middle of my living room floor and hysterically laugh my ass off at what had taken place that day. That was my therapy.  I chuckled a bit when I heard the hoopty backfire a few more times before the sound faded into the night.  But I  promised myself, “Next time, I’ll drive!”